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so i took this over two years ago...here we go again...wow
( x) smoked a cigarette: pack a day
( ) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
( x) crashed a friend's car: does my own count?
( ) stolen a car
( x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x)snuck out of parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( x) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
(x)had/have a crush on one of your LJ friends
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( x) thrown up in a bar: party is close enough
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace...or livejournal
(x) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up.
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
( x) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x ) ran a red light
(x) been suspended from school---expelled actually
( ) had detention
(X) been in a car accident
(x) had braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(X) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x!) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose---and popcorn...**twitch**
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) kissed in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
( x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed "penis" in class
(x) ate dog food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
( x) fucked in a park
( x) fucked in the bathoom
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
(x) got your toungue stuck to a pole
( x) kissed a fish: had one thrown at my face in Florida (where I am now)
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
( ) had sex at a church.
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( x) didnt take a shower for a week
( x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
( ) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
(x) gone streaking
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone---fingers and toes are bones!
(x) been easily amused---when am i not?
( x) caught a fish then ate it
(x ) made porn
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
( x) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( x) been kicked out of your house
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| yay new horse prospectives |
[19 Sep 2005|07:58pm] |
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Searchin for some horses. Thank God it sounds like Ricky is retired now. poor justin needs to follow...asap. those poor horses. but Rachel needs new investments. Christine and I are trying to get ourselves hooked up with some cheap board too. We want our horse! I found 4 horses that are total sweethearts, and I want to get more info from this rescue place i've contacted. Hopefully Rachel will be open to fostering/adopting soon, and be open to helping Christine and I out with board lol. So pray for this little operation. We'll call it operation rescue and retrain a horse. Lol.
peace kiddies, god bless
col
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| one day |
[07 Sep 2005|04:12pm] |
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What started as a crush became an obsession
It was the classic path
You've taken the weekend home, you're believing
That things are somehow getting done
But you're wrong
why do i put myself through this?
God, please, one day...one day would be nice. before im 20 maybe? that would be super.
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| maybe it doesnt have to be like that... |
[04 Sep 2005|01:03pm] |
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you've got to get better,
said, it's all in your head,
we could live through these letters
or forget it altogether,
see the months they dont matter
its the days i can't take
when the hours move to minutes
and i'm seconds away,
just ask the question come untie the knot
say you won't care,
say you won't care,
retrace the steps, as if we forgot,
say you won't care,
say you won't care,
you try to avoid it, but there's not a doubt
and there's one thing i can do nothing about...
when all that we need is just a reaction,
its too much to ask for when there's no attraction,
chasing our dreams is just a distraction
i want to remember what i know...
that i can't go back,
just ask the question, come untie the knot
say you wont care
say you wont care
retrace the steps as if we forgot
say you wont care
say you wont care
you try to avoid it (try to avoid it)
but theres not a doubt
and theres one thing i can do nothing
theres one thing i can do nothing
theres one thing i can do nothing about
just ask the question (just ask the question)
come untie the knot
say you wont care
say you wont care
retrace the steps (retrace the steps)
as if we forgot
say you wont care
say you wont care
you try to avoid it (try to avoid it)
but theres not a doubt
and theres one thing i can do nothing
theres one thing i can do nothing
theres one thing i can do nothing about
it's all in your head...you're better than she tells you. say you dont care, we'll pretend it never happened and forget all about it. tell me now, so i can untie the knots in my heart, rip them apart. and the wound that stings most is the one whispering to me my helpless-ness when it's all up to you, "cause it's one thing i can do nothing about"
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Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world
"Excuse me, sir,
But I have plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
My reply:
"Excuse me, miss
But do you have the slightest clue
Of exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?"
She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me"
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside me has died?"
My reply:
"Trust me, girl
I know your legs are pleading to leap
But I offer you this easy choice-
Instead of dying, living with me"
She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me."
I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose
"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my atttempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"
"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through
Just ten minutes before you got here I was going to jump too"
Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
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| even though ten bucks says you DO have it in you... |
[09 Aug 2005|12:15pm] |
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i believe EVERYONE has it in them to get out of the ruts they're stuck in...other than that...i love this song...
and believe me, I’d sing it in a mirror if I started falling into one of my black holes again…
paranoia is hunting you and all these dirty looks, they are right on cue
you're full up to the brim with that he said she said trash
you exist behind your keyboard then you're gone in a flash
10 bucks says you don't have it in you
to conquer fear and quit believing what they tell you to
you are careening shamelessly into oblivion
you will live alone with your chemicals and gin
I am utterly disgusted with the path you trek
as inebriated as you can get off your latest pay cheque
I am at a loss for words here
I hate to break this to you but being a coward is not a legitimate career
10 bucks says you don't have it in you
to conquer fear and quit believing what they tell you to
you are careening shamelessly into oblivion
you will live alone with your chemicals and gin
at least I'm not a liar
at least I'm not a cheat
at least I don't care what these god damn mindless people think of me
10 bucks says you don't have it in you
to conquer fear and quit believing what they tell you to
you are careening shamelessly into oblivion you will live alone with your chemicals and gin
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[08 Aug 2005|04:37pm] |
EEEK, Spill Canvas' new CD comes out TOMORROW!!!
If I can convince Rachel to invest in a western saddle or two, and some barrels, im going to start teaching western. I have a western saddle but its sort of antique...one of my mom's horses won it in a championship and im not letting it get used for lessons. so cha...that would be kewl
Kenzie is such an amazing equine creation! lol. she's been SOO good for me lately, we did so much jumping Friday. I drove over to the barn around 1:00 (per usual) and me, Kate and Katie set up some jumps for ourselves for when we rode (which is usually around 6:30ish, depending). Kenzie took ALMOST everything i put her to, which is such an improvement. the roll top to the gate, the 2 stride coups, she took both lines perfectly. she just had a mind of her own when it came to the vertiles on teh outside line lol, but for the most part she responded.
then the three of us took our horses on the trail ride and we saw the deer family that's always around, and we galloped the one section. the ponies were racing us cause we're right next to their field, it was so cute. Kenzie loved it. Diamond and Ricky had fun too. alright time for me to go to work. yay!
peace man
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| why not |
[05 Aug 2005|11:42am] |
so 2 or 3 years from now...
life will be so different. all goes well, I'll be in New York, attending Houghton College. I'll be going for my Youth min degree, and my degree in whatever i choose in Equine studies. So basically, I'll be going for what im gifted in, and i'll have my horses every step of the way.
I'll still be talking to whoever wants to talk to me. but i have no idea who that'll be. But i do know it will be the Lawswer's, the Furman's, Steve and Katlyn, and my family. Anyone else is welcome to remain a part of my life, that would make things happier! eek!
But anyway, 2 years from now i'll be doing what i want with my life. I'll be pursuing my goals in the horse world, riding, showing, learning, possibly owning. And i'll be doing the whole youth min thing, which needs no further explaination, lol, cause its awsomeness. and while im making friends and living my goals, i'll be securing my future by graduating high school and going to college. so the way i see it, these last 2 years in KOP are important and vital because they are (as much as i hate admitting it) the stepping stones to my future. but as important as they are, i can live with the fact that whatever happens now, effects the future, but will be over. I can leave KOP and do my thing.
I just need to not screw up now. I need to set it up. I've got some good friends who will keep me motivated and remind me that i need to "choose wisely" (i <3 Dane Cook). so yea...im set. im good. all the crap i've been through, its all experiences that i have. and i'll continue stumbeling off road, but i know i can get back on. one step back, as long as there are 2 steps forward. right?
right.
love you all.
here's to life as we know it.
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[02 Aug 2005|12:01pm] |
so i havent updated much, but i still read people's LJ's. and i've been reading certain ones for months, and i cant take it anymore. you people disgust me. you make me sick. you make me sad. you are so pathetic and you make me feel like crap. you need a wake up call, and you wont listen to me, so i hope it slaps you in the face one day. guess what, it will. so shut up now. just stop. life will smack you in the face and if you think it already has, you are completely wrong. why do i know this? cause you are close minded freaks who are only dweling and feeling sorry for yourselsves about whats going on in your lives. its annoying really. and its not just people with live journals. so this one is for anyone really. and those of you that it doesnt apply to, you know who you are. it even applies to me once in a while when i get in certain moods. cause im stupid too.
ok so everyone screws up. i screw up often. but i hate how all some of you do is complain about how life sucks, and then you make a fully consious decision to put more crap into your life. why do you think your life seems so bad? because things happen, they happen to all of us. but you need to pick up and move on. stop being so stupid about it. you know who all of you are. poor judgement. you dont listen to the people that care. so you mess up, ok pick up and walk from there. stop being stupid and selfish and careless and pathetic cause i hate you like that.
you are doing abosolutely noting with your lives that is worth anything. NOTHING. you are becoming completely useless, so how bout you try for once to turn that around and become something. do something in the world. anything. you will die and what will you be known for? drinking? smoking? screwing as many guys during you obcessions as you can? getting as much attention from anyone anytime? knowing more people than anyone you know? running away? dropping out of school? yes, this is to all of you. you know which one applies to who. take your pick. CHOOSE WISLEY HOLY MAN (i heart dane) .
BECOME SOMEONE OF WORTH BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH AND YOU ARE SITTING ON YOUR ASS BEING SO DUMB AND POINTLESS. WHY ARE YOU SUCKING AIR ON THIS PLANET? YOU CAN DO SO MUCH MORE WITH YOUR LIVES. STOP BEING STUPID, SELFISH, PETTY, BLIND, CLOSE MINDED. MAKE A DECISION. TAKE A RISK. BE SOMEONE EVERYONE ELSE ISNT.
SHUT UPPPP!
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| one two here we go nah nah nah ooh yea |
[02 Aug 2005|11:59am] |
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went to Wildwood this weekend for the Wildwood Beach Ultimate tourney again this year. it was such a flippin blast. seriously a good time. especially when we had the 6 hr torrential downpour from like 1:30-7:30. no lie. and it made our tent leak so me bri and mer slept in the car. fun
so that was all sorts of fun and i would explain in great detail all of the awsomeness moments, if only i cared about this journal enough.
I have really just not cared at all. i think its stupid and i put forth no effort to really put any care or energy into this anymore. its kinda humerous. yet slightly inhumane.
like misquitos.
inhumane.
but not humerous at all
so not really a good comparison
but i have bites alllllll over me
inhumane i tell you.
suckas.
last night Liz came over and us, Soni, and Winston, and Brian went bowling and went to wendy's. then they (except Bri) slept over, and it was one of the most rediculous/funest nights of my life. hahaha. and we went down the field at like 3 in the morning and chilled at the park, and threw the water bottles all over the baseball diamond. there were like 40 of em in the little holder things. so i threw them. and they helped.
why do we have english? its stupid. i disagree. with that statement. considering thats how we speak. but really. who wants to be perfected in the english language cause really it makes no sense and its a bunch of made up rules about how you can talk and write and its all circles. blah. stupid.
stupid.
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| an early departure from... |
[20 Jul 2005|02:00pm] |
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im home...
the sky is no longer spinning...
the ground under my back is no longer moving...
my mind is still one jumbled mess, but im sorting it out.
i think im still in a state of shock. a bit fragile still. just take care of me
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[13 Jul 2005|10:55am] |
step out the front door like a ghost
into the fog where no one notices the contrast
of white on white.
And inbetween the moon and you angels get a
different view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.
and i walk between the rain through myself and back again where? i dont know
Maria says she's dyin through the door i hear her cryin
why? i dont know
I want to get me a little oblivion and try to keep myself away
from me
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[13 Jul 2005|10:43am] |
Im bored, and there's nothing else to do. So yea, Hiya.
Kenzie was so good on Friday. had some trouble with one of the horses behavior earlier in the day (he has bad ground manners) but it was rediulous for him to be in...this one girl is retarded. but anyway thats a long story. so five hours at the barn, crashed at Bri and Mers with sarah and Liz, church sunday lots of valley forge for both youth groups, not to mention a super awsome cake making for Mr. Marc haha. Sunday slept at home for the first time in like 4 days, monday did some driving with the stick, taught VBS, went to the farm for ice cream with John and Amy, sarah, liz, Kakley drove us there, laura and chris met us there, and we saw dayna and her mommy, and i think that was about it.
so we drove to blockbuster in Kakley's ghetto car with the rap music, litterally holding the door closed cause it was jammed, haha. slept over the furmans, went to VBS tuesday, and here i am.
and there's a huge sleepover thing at the Furman's tonight. the 3 of them, me Lize, Dave, Amber, and maybe aaron? oh and JILL! cause she's home from Germany!
then on Saturday im off to Jersey with Aislinn!! EEEK i cant wait. except im not going to be working which = sadness and also= not getting paid. but w/e.
and ps i lost my cell so if you call it, YOU WONT GET ME. lol. im looking for a new one hopefully before i go to the shore though. ok people im out. talk to you who knows when.
col
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[06 Jul 2005|05:25pm] |
I am so homesick. It rips my heart out.
But for now, I have things to do while im here. I just need to remember that.
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[06 Jul 2005|05:15pm] |
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Figured I'd update again...nothing better to do.
I havent been able to work lately this last month, so i've lost SO many hours. but thats ok, cause soon i'll be working lots! eek!
work was so much fun today. Katlyn and I just did like 2 hours worth of cleaning in the store. I obsessed over things and just couldnt stop, i was like a machiene! haha. i LOVE LOVE LOVE my job! i dont care if i work at the mall serving flippin ice cream, its all the behind the scenes stuff, like closing shifts and all the fun there at night, and times when we have the most super awsome shifts! eek and the Dorney trip that is hopefully being moved to the 28th. ok, enough about work. but seriously, its like my life lol.
cant wait till the beach. going with Aislinn to OC maryland, should be funtastic! except i need to get off work, which means missing more, but come on, its the BEACH! ooooh and Summer Kids Club is coming up this week! eeek! i CAN NOT WAIT! this is such and awsome month! I went to CREATION!!, im going to the beach, and i get to teach my favortie fourth graders (the neighborhood fan club i have) about God. MAN I LOVE THIS!!
people need to cheer up. God gave you a life, you should live it, and stop living for yourselves.
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[04 Jul 2005|12:04pm] |
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Oh to have real, flushing toilets again (our church had our own porta-potty at our site but still), and a BED, and CENTRAL AIR!! man life was amazing. i was so upset that i missed Kentucky, and i remember saying the first day of Creation, "this doesnt make up for Kentucky, but its so much fun so far" yeah...i was wrong. Creation was the most amazing time. i met so many awsome people too. I knew God had a plan with me missing KY...i just didnt know what at that time. and now i realize that it was so I could go to Creation. because i needed it soooo bad. i'm refreshed, renewed, rejuvinated. life is amazing. you are amazing. God is amazing.
and no, i dont know how to cut things, so im not cutting this entry. get over it.
110,000 people came to Creation. 110,000 lifes were touched, re-newed, and changed. permanently. no other kind of concert event does that. at all. 110,00 people going to whatever concert they wanted to, going to mosh pits at the Fringe stage, or worship at the Main stage, 110,000 people singing, reaching up to the sky praising our Creator during the closing worship or rock band. the voices ringing out over the mountains, the fists pumping and bodies rocking in the pit, the guitars wailing and preformers jaming on the stage. it sent chills down my spine.
you say Christians cant rock out. let me tell you, i was so worn out and my body was so shocked, so deprived of water and overheated, over exhausted, that i was in a mosh pit rocking as hard as i could for 45 min, and i came out and passed out. people were passing out left and right all day every day. friends and i have bruises, we roughed it completely this week outdoors, i came home and slept 20 hours straight no lie. it was intense. there was worship, acustic cafe, screamo, plently of mosh worthy, full out rock, all kind of music all day every day. Christian music is just the same as secular. the only difference is the lyrics. so those of you that dont know what you're talking about, stop talking.
At the main stage in the evening the worship band would play, than the speaker would come up to the mic. and two bands would close afterwards. EVERY night, people would stand when asked if they were ready to accept Christ, ready to know for sure that they were going to Heavan when they died. the last night, 110,000 people were spoken to, and rallied to wake up and realize that we belong on the front lines, we belong there, willing to fight. 2,048 people stood up that night and walked to the prayer tent when asked who had accepted Christ, but who had not made the commitment to surrender their lives like soldiers. 2 thousand people alone! It was moving frineds. it was indescribable. God was there. dont you dare say He wasnt. dont you DARE riddicule Him in front of me, so help you. He is MY GOD, MY CREATOR, MY LIFE! He's yours at that too. what are you going to do about it?
"To whom will you compare me? or who is my equal?" says the Holy one. Lift your eyes and look to the heavens: who created all these? He who brings out the stars one by one, and calls them each by name. Because of His great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing.
Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, 'My way is hidden from the Lord; my cause is disregarded by my God'?
Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God, the creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and His understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will soar on the wings like eagles:
they will run and not get weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:25-31
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| since everyone else is and i have no life... |
[28 Jun 2005|12:10pm] |
( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
( ) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x)snuck out of parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger (we didnt know anything about eachother...today i'd consider him a stranger)
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die---no but came into the hospital room right after my grandmom died...in fact i think she might have been alive at first, but i cant remember. so maybe i did...oh well
(x)had/have a crush on one of your LJ friends
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace...or livejournal
(x) been moshing at a concert---if you could call it moshing...lol
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone right now---family and friends sure
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up.
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake ID---wouldnt mind one though
(x) watched the sun set---so much better than sunrises...
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
( ) ran a red light
(x) been suspended from school---expelled actually
( ) had detention--thats right, expelled, but never a detention. now if that isnt skill...mwhaha
(X) been in a car accident
(x) had braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(X) pole danced---hahaha
(x) questioned your heart
(x!) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers---oh man, old fort/park lane have the BEST GAMES over the summer! we ROCK
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose---and popcorn...**twitch**
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) kissed in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people---although i slept under the back seat on the way to KY...but that wasnt 5 days. 19 hours straight with 2 b-room breaks though...
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey---every day of my life
( ) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed "penis" in class---or something like that
(x) ate dog food --treats are close enough
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
( ) fucked in a park
( ) fucked in the bathoom
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
(x) got your toungue stuck to a pole---not exactly a pole...try my freezer door...
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader---come on, i was like, 7 or 8. and i was still totally a tomboy anyway. i was just hyperactive and live next to a football feild, and wasnt allowed to play football. (otherwise i totally would have)
(x) sat on a roof top---all the time at T and Msue's!
( ) had sex at a church.
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didnt take a shower for a week---came really close
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
( ) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes---more than 30 pairs of sandals? what?
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
(x) gone streaking
(x) played ding-dong-ditch---every summer in Pheonixville with Aislinn and almost got shot basically every summer
(x) played chicken fight---KENTUCKY!!! EEEEEEK! and Vermont! good times on both
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone---fingers and toes are bones!
(x) been easily amused---when am i not?
( ) caught a fish then ate it---went deep sea fishing numerous summers. always let them go though
( ) made porn
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
( ) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house---being told i can leave...
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got home from the barn about half an hour ago. it was a very...interesting night. got there around 6:15 and grabbed Kenzie and put her in the washstall and groomed her and pampered her for like half an hour. some girl Sarah's dad came by and talked to me for a second (they're boarders by the way) and he decided to clip Kenzie's muzzle. (she really needs to be clipped all over) and at first i was like, wtf man you're clipping my horse? go clip your own. but she needed it, and it was a nice idea. so i let it go. and he told me a trick about this really nice, all natural fly spray that is imported from france. but they label it as a "coat conditioner" to get it around the agricultural department when bringing it in. I wish i remembered the name of it. i've known someone else that used it, and it really does work very effectively. i want to get me hands on some of it!
so i finally tacked up my baby girl and went out to the outdoor ring (so many people canceled it turned out i had a half hour private lesson) but as soon as we started Kenzie was very choppy and stiff and seemed sore, so i got off and Christine and I decided i could turn her out, wait a half hour, and get another horse (like Ricky or Girlfriend or someone) and ride at 8. but to make a long story short, we decided to use her anyway cause it turns out she just starts out stiff sometimes (she's never done that with me before but whatevv) so i had already taken her saddle off and ended up just walking and trotting around the ring bareback, and then sat and chilled with her while Christine taught her private lesson. then i got a half hour of jumping in which was nice.
so Christine and her 4 year old daughter Neva (who is absolutely adorable) and I were the only ones left and I took Kenzie and Forsooth and untacked them and walked them into the barn. he kept nipping me and Kenzie though he was being a brat. he's cute and a good lesson horse, but he rubs me the wrong way sometimes. so Christine took Forsooth and grazed/brushed him and Neva helped me hose Kenzie off. Well, Kenzie spooked at the hose moving in front of her on the ground and FREAKED OUT. I mean flipped. thank god we were outside and not inside, and im so surprised she didnt pull the two posts out of the ground! but she ripped her halter off her nose and ended up with it caught in her mouth. so i got her off the cross ties and took off the halter and put it back on and waked her, talking to her and calmed her down. i figured she'd had a long, confusing night, so we just put the two of them out.
but oh no, it doesnt end there. we put them in the field and i saw smoke on the other side of the trees. i thought "fire!" and the horses all came bolting over to us. so we're surrounded by like 30 frightened horses (for those of you that dont know, when you go in the paddock, horses dont usually FLOCk over to you for fun, they tend to ignore you) so we went up to see what was going on and it turns out some people from the school were out back setting off fireworks! they werent the loud ones, but like smoke bomb things or something! how f-ing stupid is that?! so we had to tell them that the horses were freaked out and they didnt quite get why it was such a big deal, but they agreed to move somewhere else.
man, i wish the barn wasnt on the same grounds as that stupid private school. who needs them. get your own private property. oh well. but then my dad was late picking me up so the three of us sat around and chatted and little Neva was so cute. Christine and I talked about job oppertunities and that seems like it'll work out one way or another, which is good. and i might end up babysitting Neva for Christine and her husband sometimes! how fun! oh man i love my horses, and my instructor. some of the girls at that barn are kewl, and they love what they do, but alot of them are complete snobs. they're the snotty, slutty rich girls whose parents board the family horses at Greylyn and take them to all the shows in the circuit. bunch of prissy whoreish spoiled rotten brats! this one girl was sucha jerk tonight too, man i hope i never have to see her again. she was being such and snob to me, but after bareback, i put on my saddle and showed her up! i went through a simple routine and Christine used me as an example for the new rider guy who she had just gotten done with, and she was pointing out how i was doing the correct things and all. I was like "in your face biotch!" but i tried to humble myself in the end, cause no one needs to be a jerk like that, inside or out. humility. we could all use some.
alright, time for bed my friends.
later-0
ps i need a new bit for Kenzie, help control her. but i also really want to get a bitless bridle. i know they arent allowed in the showring, but they are so nice! im a big fan. they work just like a bitted bridle, but are more comfortable for the horse. ok just a thought! ha
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OMG my wrist is in EXCRUCIATING pain!! :( i tried to work tonight and the first ice cream i tried to scoop i dropped my spade in pain. so i did misc. things, like housecleaning things! man its so clean in that store! and i re-organized the fridge so i was in there for like half and hour/45min cleaning and organizing it. it was ok. but i cant find my ace wrap and everything hurts so bad...im so stupid for typing right now...its only irritating it.
devastating news from Coldstone Creamery: Raspberry Sorbet has been canceled...INDEFINATLY!! ahh its a meltdown! thats all i eat there! what am i going to do?!?!
barn tomorrow!! so excited!!
ok i think its time i stopped and made a phone call. so im gonna go.
I cant stop thinking about the what if's and the what about's...but I cant stop thinking about you!...
later-0
Colleen
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better to live for the moment while its here than hold back for a moment you cant guarentee will be here...
there's always what if's...but they'll never be answered if you dont answer them yourself.
thank you, the e-mail was elating. (is that the word im looking for?)
who cares!!!
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